It’s liberating to let the veil of perfect motherhood fall
To tell the world that there is more to your ways than a cheeky demeanour
That sometimes you are a horror
You make me cry
But I still love you
Children are beautiful creatures with beautiful souls that sometimes make you feel dark things
That it would be better for them if I just ran away, that it would be better for me if I just ran away
Admitting sometimes that we’re not good for each other
You fill me with doubt
But I still love you
Those nights of unrelenting crying are long gone but they’ve left their mark mentally
Your entry to this world has left a mark in me and on me
But every tear and line is worth it
You make me feel powerful
This is why I love you
Mothering is for those that know what they’re doing and those that don’t are unworthy
After more than half a decade at this, I realise these are lies that the world allows us to believe
I’m good at this and will continue to be good at this (she tells herself)
You fill me with self pride
This is why I love you
Only I could have brought your potential into this world and made you possible
Only I could have raised you to be who you are right now
This could be a good thing
This could be a bad thing
But I will always love you and you will always love me
So every tear I shed is worth every laugh I laugh
Every hit you make is worth every hug I get
You are my imperfect world
You are my reason
This is our love
xx woeful writes xx
Woeful Writes 